Friday, November 6, 2009

Intimate Theology...by: Oswald Chambers

It has been a while, but I have much to continue to share ; )! God has been so faithful to keep me going through this busy time. I have three more days of school work left and then I am done for a while. I read Oswald Chambers: My Utmost for His Highest in the morning and what I am about to share with you are parts of some of the devotions.

"If you are going to be used by God, He will take you through a number of experiences that are not meant for you personally at all. They are designed to make you usefulin His hands, and to enable you to understand what takes placein the lives of others. Because of this process, you will never be surprised by what comes your way. You say, "Oh, I can't deal with that person." Why can't you? God gave you sufficient opportunities to learn from Him about that problem; but you turned away, not heeding the lesson, because it seemed foolish to spend your time that way...We never really realize at the time what God is putting us through - we go through it more or less without understanding. Then suddenly we come to a place of enlightenment, and realize - "God has strengthened me and I didn't even know it!"...

Martha is a woman that was tested in this way when her brother died. However she needed a closer personal relationship with Jesus. "Martha's theology had its fulfillment in the future. But Jesus continued to attract and draw her in until her belief became an intimate possession. It then slowly emerged into a personal inheritance. Are you facing doubt in your life? Have you come, like Martha, to crossroads of overwhelming circumstances where your theology is about to become a very personal belief? This happens only when a personal problem brings the awareness of our personal need. To believe is to commit. In the area of intellectual learning I commit myself mentally, and reject anything not related to that belief. In the realm of personal belief I commit myself morally to my convictions and refude to compromise. But in intimate personal belief I commit myself spiritually to Jesus Christ and make a determination ot be dominated by Him alone. I find that faith is as natural as breathing. And I am staggered when I think how foolish I have been in not trusting Him earlier."

God loves us so much that He wants an intimate relationship with Him. When this happens it creates who we are as a person; how we think, act, serve, talk, love, etc. Our theology becomes intimate and that is what walking with Christ daily is all about. We live in faith and trust, we love others well and have patience, we do not depend on ourselves, but God and we are not crippled by fear. I hope my life is a reflection of having an intimate theology.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Battered Feet

This past year and a half that I have been done with college has been a journey of many things! It has not been an easy journey, but one that has grown my walk with the Lord. There are so many details to our individual lives, and there is only one person who could possibly understand it all and know exactly what to do. Christ has been that for me, often times I find that I come to Him at the very last moment when I am falling a part, but I have learned that He is always there beginning to end. It is just our stubbornness and pride that keeps us from turning to Him. There is so much freedom in walking through life with someone else, the very person that created you. I remember sitting one day and thinking about my journey with the Lord and praying through some decisions I have to make and realizing it's a hard journey to walk. There are times when I am worn out and exhausted, my feet are battered and they need a break. Then thinking through Jesus' life, I realized He is the one that heals and cleanses our battered feet, I should always be turning to Him. He did the very thing in service to the disciples by washing their feet, John 13:5. Jesus was serving the disciples in this manner and setting the example of what we are called to do as well. This walk with the Lord is not easy, but it is way better than anything this world offers. It does not even compare!! We are to walk with Jesus and live out the example that He did. He chooses to wash our feet and use us to share His good news with the world and freedom from walking it alone.
"And how are they to preach unless they are sent? As it is written, How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news!" Romans 10:5
"And let us not grow weary of doing good..." Galatians 6:9a
I love my battered feet because of how much they have brought me to love Jesus! It has brought me to a deeper understanding of Christ's sacrifice, glory, honor and how undeserving I am of His grace. Each person's tells a story and the beauty is that Christ chooses to wash clean anything and everything that is on there, how can we not share that hope with others. We have an amazing gift to be able to share with others and in turn serve and wash their feet as well. It never gets easier, but we grow stronger and it is all for the glory of the Lord and bringing the good news of His Word and salvation to others. Do not lose hope and Jesus as your focus, it is easy to be distracted and give up, but turn to Jesus. He has never left your side!

Friday, October 2, 2009

Mirror, Mirror on the Wall...

I was recently thinking about what my life is reflecting. When I stand in the mirror what do I see? Often times it is frustration with the way that I look, my hair looks bad, nothing is fitting right, etc. Most of the time I overlook the real thing that I should be concerned with which is my heart. I was doing a study on Hebrews 4:12, "For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart." The part that really got to me was that God judges the thoughts and intentions of the heart. I always took this verse as something that was placing God in the light of convicting. While he very much does that through the Spirit, I saw a tender God in this passage instead, and I saw Him in a different light than ever before. God through His abundant grace has blessed me with the opportunity to have a personal relationship with Christ. They are working as one to begin to mold and shine me into the image of Christ. I often times complain and am frustrated as I battle my desires with what I know is right in the eyes of the Lord. How often I forget that I am created to reflect Him. The reason the Lord is concerned with judging our thoughts and intentions of the heart is because most of the time they are not pure and our motives are off. When that is the case, I see myself distorted. I see the discontentment with my looks, the cracks in my heart, the disfigurement of my life, all because I am not looking at the right mirror. I am looking at the mirror I made up for me. When Christ digs into our lives with the sword often, it is because He is bringing us back to the TRUE mirror that He has created for us. That mirror reflects the perfection of Christ in us. When I look outside of myself and look at my heart and realize what all the Lord is doing in my life, I see His beautiful creation, character, promises, love and much more. I then can see myself how He intends. Psalm 139:13-18, "For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained for me, When as yet there was not one of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand. When I awake, I am still with You." This is what I want my life to reflect...the beauty of the Lord from within, to be united with my creator living out what He has created me to do.

Mirror, Mirror on the Wall...Jesus deserves my ALL!

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Journey with me...

Thanks so much for tuning in! I decided to start blogging about the journey God has me on. It has been full of adventure, at times frustration, brokenness, praises, thankfulness, hope, and much more! I wanted to be able to share what the Lord is teaching me, bringing me through and realizing I am not alone. It is in the times when I feel like I am in control and can do things on my own that I find myself frustrated, stressed and closed off. It is in Christ that I have found a beautiful freedom even when life is hectic. I wanted a place where I could share my journey and it be an open door to my heart as I walk with Christ. I chose these beautiful church doors as a background not because they represent a church, but because each moment, each day, each week I have begun challenging myself to enter through the doors of Christ's freedom not living in my own little world. There are things that I could not even comprehend of doing, yet He continues to do things beyond my comprehension and that to me is beautiful and brings so much freedom!
"The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.”
~ Flora Whittemore ~

{We have a daily choice to follow Christ or Not}